So that was a thing.

[strangecharm]

Just wanted to say that my appointment with the nurse yesterday went pretty badly -- lots of aggressive and passive-aggressive nonsense from her, weird unnecessary questions, equating weight with health, making me feel defensive and weird.

Got my prescription, though, so that's that done for another year.

I was feeling weird and fragile and because LJ wasn't working complained to twitter, where yoyoangel, bethanthepurple, and especially miss_s_b and magister) were nice to me and helped me feel better. An already-planned trip to the pub with diffrentcolours helped a lot too.

But I have caught myself having worrying thoughts regarding the food I'm eating, the clothes I'm wearing and going to the gym... all this stuff I was working so hard at now feels fucked-up again, and I resent that and don't look forward to the work it'll take me to get back to even as good as I was doing lately, which wasn't great to begin with.

Comments

[magister]

Glad to have helped. :)

[strangecharm]

I'm glad you did too!

I probably would have more enjoyed comments relating to my gorgeousness at any other time -- while I know they were utterly well-intentioned and appreciated them as such, I couldn't stop thinking about how horrible this kind of situation must be for people less well-prepared than me, or with less kind and supportive friends, and being angry that such a situation exists -- in the face of SCIENCE, ffs -- rather than that I was in it. So even if I didn't seem very happy with the compliments, I was :)

[magister]

Yes, there are some people who feel they can stick to their own opinion in the face of all rational evidence. Tain't much fun to deal with.

Anyway, I'm quite happy to point out your general gorgeousness as and when appropriate.

[miss_s_b]

What James said.

[strangecharm]

::basks in compliments::

[strangecharm]

The first half of your comment I can only agree with; the second half I can only blush and grin at.

[magister]

Grinning is good. Nowt wrong with blushing either at the right time. :)

[strangecharm]

Man, you couldn't do better if you were deliberately thinking "what could I do do make both of those things worse."

Or, better. Depending on perspective, I suppose. "Happen more," anyway. :)

[magister]

You say the nicest things.

I'm going with "better", personally.:)

[strangecharm]

Yeah, you would. :)

[magister]

Yes, I would, wouldn't I? :)

[yoyoangel]

*hug*

[strangecharm]

Thanks. x